This is the first time I’ve tried using this Chromebook as I would a regular computer and I’m not sure how long I can do this without throwing the damn thing across the room. There’s no precision in trying to scroll to a specific place on the page. Editing a picture with any precision? Forget it, that’s not happening. Trying to find an app that will do what you need done? Good luck! Half the apps in the Play Store don’t work on Chromebook at all despite being “mobile” apps. Apparently, all the OS people at Google think that everyone spends their time playing fucking idiotic pay-to-play games. Why the fuck would anyone do that in the first place? Somehow, I just hit something that opened the fucking debug window! Can this get any more stupid? [Don’t answer that, I don’t want to know.]
Trying to edit anything in Lightroom is a complete nightmare. It took four fucking attempts before this morning’s image would import. It can’t read TIFF files at all apparently, or at least, it won’t show me the thumbnail so I can see which image is which. Just finding the menu item so I can import an image is about the most non-intuitive thing I’ve ever seen in a piece of software. Exporting an image? That’s a whole other nightmare! YOU CAN’T CHOOSE WHERE THE IMAGE IS BEING SAVED! I don’t want to save images on this device. I want them back on the external drive from which they came! Why the fuck is that such a foreign concept to this piece of crap? And then, when I want to upload the said image to the server so that I can use it here, I have to go hunting. They’re buried under a cumbersome file tree that makes zero sense. Again, the absence of any kind of File Explorer in this stupid OS is absurd. I need Google and Adobe to fix this fucking mess.
One of the apps that doesn’t work on the Chromebook like it does on my phone? Kroger. Why is that important? Because I have to order groceries and Kroger is the only local store that carries the sugar-free bread that I need so I can make a fucking sandwich. What happens if I don’t use sugar-free bread? The same damn thing that happened last night when I ate more than one biscuit with dinner: my sugar jumps nearly 100 points. It would be really nice if I could create an order on the larger screen so that I can make sure I’m ordering the right size/flavor/quantity without having to squint. But no, after downloading the Kroger app, it sent me to the website, which then wouldn’t let me log in. Fuck that.
Not that anything matters. I was expecting my check to be deposited first thing this morning like it was last month. I even got a letter from the bank telling me that I was signed up for the advance deposit thing. So, I don’t think it’s unreasonable that my check would be deposited on the same day that it was last month. I have bills to pay and groceries to buy. But no, that didn’t happen. I don’t have any idea when/if it will happen. Funny how no one lets you know there’s a problem until after it’s messed up your life. The check normally, on its own, appears on the 10th. That may not seem like that big a deal, waiting four more days, but by waiting until the 10th, A) my phone bill is late and invokes a late fee as a result, and B) I can’t get groceries until the next day because I have a fucking doctor’s appointment on the 10th that could very well take all fucking day or longer if my pancreas decides to not cooperate.
I’m too old and too sick to be getting worked up like this. I don’t even want to take my blood pressure because I already know it’s too high. Want to know what’s lying at the root of this tirade? I can tell you. I’m pissed because I can’t fix it. I can’t fix the desktop. I don’t have that level of skill. I have to depend on someone else and in my mind that’s the same as saying I’m a failure. I’m supposed to be able to do it all, anything, on my own, but increasingly I’m finding too damn many things that I can’t do, and losing the desktop has sent me over the edge.
I’m banking hard on Brandon being able to bring the thing back to life without having to completely wipe the hard drive. I’m also hoping that it’s an easy fix that doesn’t take much of his time. Asking someone to do something time-consuming on the weekend that doesn’t directly benefit them is just rude.
And what happens if the computer can’t be brought back from the dead? First, I cry. Amazon has a Dell Optiplex 9020 Small Form Factor Desktop with Intel Core i7-4770 Upto 3.9GHz, HD Graphics 4600 4K Support, 32GB RAM, 1TB SSD, DisplayPort, HDMI, Wi-Fi, Bluetooth – Windows 10 Pro (Renewed) for only $214 that would probably meet my needs. I think the biggest concerns I would have are the number of USB ports it doesn’t have and that it’s a renewed Windows 10 OS, not Windows 11. Anything new from Dell starts at $700. HP has some for as little as $500 but they have so little RAM that I’m not sure Photoshop or After Effects would even boot up. If they did, it would take forever for anything to process. Let’s hope that Brandon can work some kind of miracle so that I don’t have to consider any of these options.
I have a copy of the late Maynard Ferguson’s 1976 album, Primal Scream. I put it on yesterday and let it play louder than normal; it could be heard outside my room. This is probably the best and safest way to express what I’m feeling. I’m not okay. I need my desktop. I need my check. I need some sense of at least moderate control over what’s happening in my life. If that can’t happen, just shoot me.
Morning Update: 06/21/24
Summer is definitely here and it’s making its presence known all across the Northern Hemisphere. The number of people dying from heat exhaustion is frightening. Of course, you won’t see much, if any of that in the news because it keeps people from doing things that spend money. That’s what summer is all about, isn’t it? Spending money. If we were to have a summer so hot that everyone stayed home and kept their money to themselves, thousands of businesses would have to shutter. We’ve built our economy in such a way that spending every dime you make and then some is a requirement to keep the nation strong.
Sitting in my email this morning was the following message from Adobe: The price of Creative Cloud All Apps for students and teachers is changing to US $34.99/month (plus applicable taxes), which will take effect on your next renewal date. This price continues to reflect an over 35% discount on the Creative Cloud All Apps plan. This comes as the US Government earlier this week filed suit against Adobe for having a “convoluted” cancellation process. In short, if you try canceling within the first year, Adobe tries charging you for the full annual amount.
Then, there was this from Reuters: Â Amazon mulls $5 to $10 monthly price tag for unprofitable Alexa service, AI revamp. Alexa’s been losing money for years so I doubt anyone can say they’re surprised. However, a large portion of Alexa users are seniors on a fixed income. $5 or $10 may not sound like much to some, but it’s a big deal for those whose budgets are already stretched to the breaking point.
Oh, and remember those “loans” given to help keep businesses afloat during the pandemic? IRS says ‘vast majority’ of 1 million pandemic-era credit claims show a risk of being improper. Offer corporations free money and not only will they take their share and run, they’ll steal what was supposed to go to other smaller companies as well. Corporate America can’t be trusted at any level.
I did get this email from my bank: Your new card is on the way. It should arrive soon, so be on the lookout. If you weren’t paying attention earlier this week, I had to order a new debit card after a $100 charge showed up that was not authorized. This is life in America: if you don’t spend all your money, someone will take it from you, probably Adobe or Amazon.
Meanwhile, I still need $300 to get a PC that works. No one seems to be interested in helping, but just in case today’s different: Venmo: @C_I_Letbetter or CashApp: $ciletbetter.
To help fight the heat, Kat took the kids to a pool yesterday afternoon. Remember yesterday morning’s post when I reminded everyone to wear sunblock? Yeah, Kat forgot the sunblock. If you’ve met her, you know how pale her skin is. Yes, she’s burned. Be gentle.
I’m going to need the attention of every photographer and camera manufacturer later today. There’s an article dropping at 10:00 and I’m going to need some answers. Be watching.
Apparently, I snored loudly last night. I left the door open when I went to bed. It was closed when Jack-Jack woke me up. Odd. I didn’t hear a thing. 🤣
This doesn’t feel like a Friday. We’ll see how it goes.
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